I have what I hope will be an exciting announcement: I’m going to be hosting a podcast!
The plan is to interview “experts” on the topics of grief, loss, death, terminal illness, suicide (I know; really uplifting topics, right??). Here’s the catch though: I am looking for The Beauty In the Breakdown, the silver linings, the growth that can come from living with the harrowing challenges of excruciating loss.
This is not to say there isn’t a dark side to tragedy and trauma. Far from it. The pain of grief is real, and although its intensity may wane, one never truly gets over it. I know. My son’s absence – even 8 years later – is present for me every single day. So this podcast won’t be about ignoring or bypassing the hardships. I want to keep it real.
But I also want it to leave my listeners feeling hopeful.
I’m one of the lucky ones. I’ve managed to re-engage with life. I’m functioning in the world again. I show up. I’m vulnerable with others. I even dare to love.
I wanted to turn my own personal loss into something more than the woeful tragedy it is. I wanted to give something back in gratitude for all the love, support, encouragement and compassion I received in the aftermath of my son’s suicide. And as I approached (and then hit) my 60-year mark, I pondered my legacy. I realized I had to come up with a new one now that my son is no longer it.
Since Julian’s suicide, I’ve been admittedly a little obsessed with making meaning of his death…not just for my benefit and peace of mind, but for the benefit of others too. I blog; I write with others; I coach survivors. And soon I will be hosting a podcast. It seems the best way to put all my education, training, and life experience to good use. It also seems the best way to honor my son’s struggle and his memory.
My goal: to be up and running with the podcast by the end of the year. I haven’t decided how often to post; weekly seems to be the trend, but that feels SO ambitious and daunting! There will eventually be some gentle music in the background (this version just has my voice). I would love your feedback about this podcast concept, this intro in particular, ideas about possible guests, whatever you believe might be helpful as I embark on this new adventure.
Have a listen, and please comment below. Thank you.
P.S. I wish I had come up with the title of my podcast, “Beauty In The Breakdown,” but credit goes to the musical phenom, Frou Frou, and their haunting 2002 song, “Let Go.” Enjoy!
P.P.S. A special shout-out to Andrea Scher, whose online class, “The Mighty Little Podcast Course,” lit a fire under me and, well, here I am.